“Are you ready to hold your baby boy?” the nurse asked the exhausted new-mother who sat slightly upright in the hospital bed.
Her eyes, although tired, sparkled as she held out her hands. A tiny blue bundle was placed in her arms, and it was as if he was made to fit there. He peeked up from his soft cocoon, much like his mother’s womb, and he gazed up to see a woman that he already loved, although he did not quite know it.
“Hello, my little Max,” said his mother, and she smiled into his little face even after he had fallen asleep.
It’s too late for this, thought Max’s mother. Her son was wearing his wolf suit again, even though she had asked him three times to take it off and get into his pajamas. Most days, he refused to wear any other type of clothing around the house. He was attached to his suit, a gift given regrettably one Halloween long ago.
Max had always been a rambunctious child. The moment he could crawl he began to cause all sorts of unwanted stress to his mother. The wolf costume was a new addition and it matched his wild behavior. But, despite his occasional monstrous behavior, Max’s mother still loved him as she did from the first day she held him.
Tonight, she was having a hard time being overly loving to Max. She was tired and had cooked a hot meal for Max, including all of his favorite foods. She was even going to let him have chocolate milk with dinner, instead of plain milk.
She was getting tired of the night’s antics. To start, Max was refusing to take off his wolf suit, but unfortunately that happened on the regular. Tonight however, he nailed up a tent to play in, using a hammer as a tool and leaving holes in the freshly painted walls. He was pretending that it was his castle, a castle that he would rule for the duration of the night.
He also decided to run around the house, jumping on and off furniture, chasing after their poor dog with utensils, thrashing around and refusing to settle down. Max’s mother couldn’t take it any longer. Supper was on the table and was ready to be eaten, and Max couldn’t care less.
Finally, she had to do something. She rarely raised her voice, thinking that it didn’t do anything to calm down a child, but she didn’t know what else to do.
“WILD THING,” she yelled at him, hoping he would stop and settle down.
Max looked at her with angry eyes, like a wolf ready to attack. He held up a spoon that he had been carrying, waving it at her with force and ready to throw a tantrum.
“I’LL EAT YOU UP,” he screamed, waving the spoon in front of her face.
That was the last straw for Max’s mother, and she was through with how he was acting and how he was treating her. She figured a cruel punishment would have to serve as a lesson. She pointed towards his room and ordered for him to go to bed, without supper.
Max stormed off and obeyed, and locked himself in his room. Max’s mom went to the kitchen and made herself a plate, looking down with dismay. She hated to yell at Max. She loved her wild son with all her heart, but she couldn’t understand why he was acting out, behaving like some sort of animal.
As she picked at her supper, she heard him clanging around in his room. Probably creating another “castle,” she thought. He had such an imagination at such a young age. Always dreaming of far away places with creatures and monsters and other wild things. He was always telling her these stories, in between the fort-building and rumpus-making, but she listened and smiled all the while.
Sometimes she would read Max stories before he would go to bed. He curled up in her lap in her arms, in the spot that was made for him, and she would read to him before he fell asleep. Since Max was always bouncing off of things in the house, he always came to her with a teary-eyed face and scratches on his arms. Max’s mother always had Band-Aids and kisses ready for her restless son.
And, every Mother’s Day since he could write, he would scribble a homemade card for her on construction paper, with unsymmetrical crayon hearst and “I love you” written all over the inside.
Although Max spent most of his time daydreaming, she knew her song would always come back to her, because in her arms there was always a warm place where he could endlessly be loved. She knew in her heart, that her Max loved her just the same.
Max’s mother finished her supper and went over to the stove where she put food on a separate plate. It was still warm. She walked quietly to Max’s room and walked over to his nightstand. He was collapsed in his bed near his make-shift castle. His wolf costume remained on and his face was flushed and peaceful.
She placed the warm plate of supper on his nightstand and dimmed his lights in his room. She crept to the open door and turned to where Max was sleeping. Before leaving she whispered goodnight to him, even though he was fast asleep, off in some jungle with vines and monsters and little boys without supper.
“Goodnight, my king of the wild things.”
This short story was written for my mother. The inspiration is from Maurice Sendak’s Where the Wild Things Are, a story about a boys adventurous mind and a mother’s eternal love. Max’s journey and realization that he always has a place at home is just one reminder of all the things a mother is and always will be.
Floated, removed from their spindly stems
Their tops bobbing briefly to the surface
Of her lukewarm bath from early this morning
She had asked for roses, but instead
Dull tones to match her skin
Sinking, the flower buds wait to be saved
While she stays at the bottom
Lifeless in a porcelain vase
In my Introduction to Music course that I am taking this semester, my professor asked the class to define music in our own terms, and I thought the best way to describe it is with a blog post.
The past weekend I went to Winter Jam in Philadelphia, PA, which was a free outdoor concert. When my friends first invited me, I thought they were completely crazy, because not only was it an outdoor concert, but it was an outdoor concert during one of the coldest/snowy weekends. I didn’t think my first choice for a weekend outing would be standing in the feels-like-below-zero weather and snow, but I was clearly mistaken.
My friends and I stood at that concert for more than five hours, but it’s a memory I hope to hold onto. During the concert, I had to just look around and see how many people had showed up. It was such a surprise to see that many people willing to stand in the cold for a concert, but it made sense to me. Music brings people together.
There’s something amazing about that idea, that no matter the weather, the time, the place, if music is somehow involved it’s like none of those things matter. Complete strangers can get together and bond as one unified group for the same love they all share: music.
This concert stood apart from all other concerts I had attended. I was able to bond with complete strangers, hold hands with girls while we danced to the music, sing to my favorite songs with my friends and crowd members, let go of agendas and stress and just enjoy the sound of talented musicians and crazy fans. There is no textbook definition that could best describe music as an experience like that.
A impromptu short story completed for my creative writing class, where I partnered with avid writer Becca Lynn. Our prompt was on a relationship, with the incorporation of a goldfish somewhere in the story.
John and I never seemed like a couple that would break up over something so trivial. One day, I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had to leave him. I had to get out. He came home from work one day, and I don’t know…I lost it.
“I hate its bulging eyes and its white flecked scales and the round bowl that you have it in. It’s so oddly placed on that dresser, look at it…next to your dying plant that you refuse to water,” I paused, taking in the deer-in-the-headlights look on his face.
I continued my rant, watching him set down his briefcase and take a step back. Was he afraid of me?
“You never forget to feed the fish though. It swims around, in its pathetic prison—waiting for you to feed it!”
My voice echoed in our apartment. Thank goodness the window was closed. I’m sure the neighbors would be scared to hear such a fight from what they thought was a forever-in-love couple. They didn’t know about the fish.
“Jodi, no,” John mumbled. “Why are you saying these things? Where did all of this come from? You know how much this fish means to me!”
I heard what he said but I didn’t care. I kept thinking about the fish, glancing over to the bowl with a sick feeling in my stomach. It’s not the fish, although, it was a little. The fish is just simple and boring. I don’t see a point in something that swims around, never changing its path, always remaining a sad, little orange creature that lives in a comfortable home on top of a comfortable dresser.
But he loved that fish. I could tell he was about to cry, or tell me why the fish meant something to him. He took a step closer to me, his eyes glazing over and his eyebrows quivering up and down in confusion.
“Jodi, I just don’t understand. We have been through so much together and now you’re getting worked up over a fish?”
He kept looking at me in those wide eyes, searching for any ounce of sympathy that I wasn’t willing to give him.
“I love you, Jodi, don’t you get it? You make me so happy. I would change for you, I really would. I just love my fish so much. I would do anything for you, as long as I can keep my fish. You know you love coming home from work and seeing her swimming around in her little bowl chasing bubbles around in the water.”
He was running out of breath but didn’t give up.
“Well,” he swallowed. “Now you’re the bubbles and I’m the fish and I’m chasing you. Eventually she gets bored of chasing her bubbles but I could never get bored of chasing you. I promise. All I ask is that we keep her! I wish you could see how much this would mean to me. I want to swim through life together, with you, forever, Jodi.”
I looked down at the floor and took a deep breath. I knew this wasn’t going to be easy.
“John, I can’t remain in a place created upon routine, each day the same thing,” I saw his mouth quiver.
“Jodi! It’s a fish! Just a fish! One of the most simple, easy-going creatures on the planet! You don’t even have to take care of her—”
“You bet I don’t take care of that thing!” I interrupted, shouting a little louder than I intended.
“Then why does it matter to you?” he demanded. “This fish completes me. I love her. But I love you more! Believe me when I say this, Jodi, I love you, and you mean the world to me. I just need both of you in my life.”
He stood waiting for me to say something, probably hoping I wouldn’t go on about the fish. I had to continue.
“Each swim around the tank is just another day for that fish. You can’t even give the fish different color rocks at the bottom of her tank, remember? I suggested those purple rocks, at least give her a chance to have a change in scenery.”
I sat on the bed, looking away from the fish and John’s face as he desperately searched for air. Like a fish, I thought.
“You know what, I feel sorry for that fish. He’ll never get that from you: change. Life will stay the same, just like our relationship.”
I stood up and walked toward the window, my back is again to the fish, and to John.
I stared out the window and wished to say something else but I was lost. I was swimming in my own pool of frustration. I tried to understand what he was saying, but I only hated him more. I walked to the door and saw him hold out his hand.
“I never wanted the life of a goldfish,” I whisper, and I was gone.
A snow globe held
tiny fragile plastic
specs of white
and shiny glitter
in a slushy sort of
mixed in a liquid
that bubbles to the top
A miniature tree rests
next to a cobblestone house
with a red door and
Something feels the need
to interrupt its stillness
and the settled snow and
shiny bits that look so tempting.
The whiteness rises to the top
and cascades around the
and it looks silent
and serene but it’s
really just chaos.
It’s shaken twice more and
then it’s allowed to rest,
but the tree
and the house
the snow seems
dull and the glitter
doesn’t shine and all
this entire bubbled-up scene
wants is a moments rest,
some peace to forget
it’s constantly being
With one quick thought
Who he was
And where was he going
Becoming quickly familiar with
His sun-kissed curly hair
And eyes of baby algae;
The kind that floats on
A warm lake
Late in the afternoon
Only for a moment she allowed
Her tanned skin to
Submerge in their coolness
And she wanted to never
Return to the surface
But she could only hold her
Breath for so long
Finding it was realistic
For her to float
In some comfortable
Puddle of water
She soon became familiar
And her inability
But she remembered
Him and the summer’s past
And she found a way
To stop treading,
Hold her breath
And jump in deep,