Her eyes tried to focus on the spreadsheet that was opened up on her laptop, but she was too anxious. Her heart fluttered and she felt lightheaded every time she looked at the time. She tried focusing on each cell, slowly adding data to the columns, avoiding the righthand corner where the clock ticked. Her lunch break was coming up and she knew she would have to talk to him.
Kiss me hard before you go*
After she saved her document, she saw him stand up and walk over to her desk and heard him say he was going to get lunch, as expected.
“Are you coming with me?” he asked.
They walked to his car and drove to a sandwich shop the town over. The radio played softly, but it was loud enough to drown out the beating of her heart which she was sure he could hear.
I just wanted you to know
He pulled into a parking spot and turned off the car. She started to get out and he put a hand on her shoulder.
“Wait,” he whispered.
She looked at him, and waited.
“I just want you to know that I care about you. But this opportunity is what I need, and I have to take it. I’m sorry,” he paused. “What we have is special, but this is all I can give. You deserve more.”
“I understand, really, don’t worry about me,” she forced a smile on her face.
They got out and ordered sandwiches, the same way they did every Thursday. Except it was the last Thursday he was working in the office, and she never saw him again.
That baby you’re the best
* “Summertime Sadness” Lana Del Rey, Born to Die